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When I was younger I didn’t understand why people formed destructive addictions. I didn’t understand why people did drugs that ruined their minds, smoked until their lungs were black, drank until they couldn’t see and think straight, or had meaningless sex and kisses with strangers. I’ll be honest, I looked down on them and pitied their lack of self-control. But I’m older now. My innocence is shot. Now I understand. All of these things fill the hole that haunts you like a ghost wherever you go. These habits don’t get rid it, not even close, but for a while it fills the dark, heavy, and maddening void. It makes you feel something other than the hellish emptiness. So your life becomes one of obsession. You obsessively chase those highs and thrills because without them, you just feel numb. And if you what it’s like to feel nothing, you understand why people destroy themselves to escape it.
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